Reconnecting with Who You Are


I was sitting in my favorite local café, Mellow Moods, the other day, just people watching. It just recently changed ownership and there have been quite a few learning curves for everyone involved, as there is with any transition. I was thinking to myself how when we go for what we want in life, it never turns out exactly the way we think it will.
I have caught myself in this many times. Just the other night my boyfriend asked me what I was thinking about and I realized I was trying to planning out 2019…
There is nothing at all wrong with planning. I love the phrase “Proper preparation prevents piss poor performance”  ;) Yet, I also find myself getting everything laid out so beautifully on paper, only to start engaging with that idea in real life and running into obstacles.
It’s important to remind ourselves that there is nothing wrong with us or our idea if it looks or feels a bit (or a lot) messy in the making of it.It’s totally natural. It’s the creative process.
My dad was an architect, and funny enough, I learned a lot about architecture when it comes to the human body and our souls. In architecture, there is a concept call “tensegrity.” It means:
Tensegrity (n): the characteristic property of a stable three-dimensional structure consisting of members under tension that are contiguous and members under compression that are not.
In layman’s terms, that means… everything is connected. When you affect one aspect of something, it also affects everything else.
This happens in the human body. If your foot is out of alignment, it affects the rotation of your knee, the alignment of your hip, and has effects all the way up to the top of your head.
The same goes for our ideas and dreams. Once you start to engage with them, take action towards them, you are literally creating change, not only in your life, but in the entire system.

Aka, when you create something, it affects the whole world.
It’s easy to get discouraged and think, “I’m not doing enough. This isn’t making a difference.” But whenever you put positive energy out into the Universe, it HAS to change something. It can’t not. It’s just the law of physics.
So I get it. Sometimes we want to take a lot of time to get that idea perfect, to plan it out to perfection, to make all the lists we need to tic off in order to accomplish it. Taking time for thoughtful and heartfelt preparation is amazing and necessary.
Trust yourself. There just comes a point where it is time to go, to lean into the action, to try something new, even something incredibly simple, and see how it reverberates. Not only in the outer world, but also inside of you. It connects you with who you are.

Dream with your head in the clouds. Walk with your feet on the earth. And live with your heart in the world.

Because you know it in your bones when you’re creating a ripple effect in the way only you can.

Love Always,